Last one - Poems from the past....part 7

My heart yearns for Love's tender touch

My love is lost and yet to be found

Love's absence rips me, holds me down

Love...you shall, or shall not be around

To hold me, cure my loneliness

To meet my eyes, so mine can meet yours and no longer despise

The parting we've never had...for we have yet to be...one

One soul created by two full halves

Halves that had been waiting since the day their virgin eyes met the piercing light of this dark world.

Oh my love, with every dark hour, it seems ten years pass.

My emptiness grows so bountiful that my aching heart is filled with nothing and thus growls, like a hungry wolf.

When shall we meet? When will the heavens let my heart be filled with the purity - purity only the stars of the night can provide

For the day has not the purity that my dreams hold.

Dreams! Oh why are they only dreams?

Your fair skin and soul's perfection - why has it yet to become a reality?

Every dream makes the morning seem more dreadful for it is with the day that I feel your absence.

My love, I must wait until you hear my silent cries, until we can dance on the million grains of sand that lie waiting for the changing tides to bring us together.

Until we can dance under the stars that grant me hope, and until we dance so tenderly, know that I lay in wait.

For when we meet, our love will possess every star in the night's sky

With our love, we shall possess the kind of gold that man has yet to discover and with it, we shall build a palace so our wishes will have a place to come true.

And our hearts can rejoice with a fulfillment they've never felt.

Know now and forever, that I am dreaming of you, needing your love to balance my scales.

For only your love, is true love.

Part 6 - Poems from the Past

A young woman carefully weighs jewels and gold dust.

Trying to balance the scales without spilling her special jewels, the scales constantly shift up and down.

As she tried complex measuring techniques and calculations, only when she resorted to her simplest methods did the scales settle down.

She could then make educated trades for supplies to carry along with her on her spiritual journey. Following and enjoying simpler measures, she also began to live and take on whatever came her way.

With her air cleared and freshened, her pink scarf tied around her neck, protecting her from the cold and at the same time accenting her princess rosy cheeks, she tackled the hurdles that came before her with confidence.

She carries a candle, bright enough to give light for direction.

Her path is lined with full length mirrors, meeting people along the way whose reflections constitute a small part of her whole being.

She learns and dreams of every image she sees and, in a small way, she touches others, by showing them that dreams really can come true. oung woman carefully weighs jewels and gold dust.

Trying to balance the scales without spilling her special jewels, the scales constantly shift up and down.

As she tried complex measuring techniques and calculations, only when she resorted to her simplest methods did the scales settle down.

She could then make educated trades for supplies to carry along with her on her spiritual journey. Following and enjoying simpler measures, she also began to live and take on whatever came her way.

With her air cleared, her pink scarf tied around her neck, protecting her from the cold and at the same time accenting her princess rosy cheeks, she tackled the hurdles that came before her with confidence.

She carries a candle, bright enough to give light for direction.

Her path is lined with full length mirrors, meeting people along the way whose reflections constitute a small part of her whole being.

She learns and dreams of every image she sees and, in a small way, she touches others, by showing them that dreams really can come true.

~I think God was giving me a glimpse of what it will be like when I found Him. That once the 'air cleared' I would tackle life's hurdles with confidence, because I would have Him as my light to help me along the way; and, that I would be able to look at others with compassion and understanding.

Out of this World Love - Part 6 - Words from God

I really feel now when I read this, that God was speaking through this poem, he was reassuring me and also showing me he understood how I was feeling. He was talking about how we are all unique, and that even our faults can and will be used for good. This is one of a few that were not written in the first person but I think now, they were messages of encouragement and love from God. I love this poem so much more now than I probably ever did back then - often I would write things and never read them again so this is so amazing to go back and find all of these little messages from God amidst all of the pain and longing I was going through at the time. The Lord really is with us ALWAYS.

Too much time to think, but not enough to think about.

with a mind so flooded with emptiness, any hope is clouded by loneliness.

As your only companion, your soul becomes your best friend.

Gazing at what is on the other side of the fence, your truth is forgotten.

It becomes overgrown with weeds - people litter as they pass and soon, like weeds, your inner chaos has taken over.

But within that heap of unwanted everythings, there is that one plant.

That one flower, that most would have over watered. But your perfect carelessness has let it blossom, because THIS flower wasn't thirsty for the world's attention.

It is this one flower, that one spark within you, that you have overlooked that is soon to be admired by all others, since only you have been able to grow it.

Your flower will grow when the setting is right and you will then realize that you are truly unique, and that you always have been!

Out of this World Love - Part 5

Morning was born early on the day I saw beauty

I was awaken by an angelic voice

"Come, I'll show you, draw open your eyes and you will see the universe."

As I looked over the trees at the rising sun (son),

Its first beam of light waved to me.

All my walls turned ruby red, the leaves on the trees sparkled with life, the day I saw beauty.

I will wait my love, a lifetime or more,

for I know you are the one.

One day, I will feel the comfort of your love that will shine onto me with the warmth only true love can provide.

Our spirits will no longer starve for the other half. Your eyes will melt my loneliness.

I know you are near,

but until the day I rest in your arms, I wait.

If it is only for one day that I can rest in you, I will wait.

For every second I spend with you will last a lifetime

~Angelic love will find me.

Out of this World Love - Part 4 - Strength of darkness, Absence of Light

Lights travel across the dark horizon
A chilling breeze tickles the back of my neck
I feel trapped in a rush,
A rush created by others' worldly dreams
Dreams that punish me, and interrupt my dreams of passion, hope, and light
Dreams that cast a shadow so dark that it hides my freedom, my hope.
For these worldly dreams dreamt up by others who think passion is a dollar figure or a portfolio of concrete accomplishments are keeping me and my love hostage on opposite ends of this dirty playing field.
I wear a mask, to try and escape my prison, to try and blend in.
Aggravated and sore from my masks that put heavy burdens on my soul, I lose touch with where I am trying to go.
I feel an itch as a hard gust of wind sweeps across the mountain top, angry that I'd interrupted its flight.
I cry out one last time, and my voice echos through the air.
...but of course, it is not heard over the rush of our evil prison guards.

Out of This World Love - Part 3 - Battle between Darkness or Light

I sit in an empty room, alone.

Someone is at the doorway, flicking the light on and off.

I don't know which I hate more, the light or the dark?

The dark transports me to many other dimensions.

My mind tries to rest but thought rent space in my palace

I dream of life, things I like, things I hate.

I dream of hate itself.

But I also dream of love...oh the love I dream of!

More passionate than any cry, more passionate than any song.

My dreams of love can hardly be expressed, they are left in another dimension - my true love will travel there one day and he will see for himself and understand this kind of Love.

Our love will paint a ring on my finger that is worth more than any gold or diamond. Our understanding of each other and our compassion for each other will build a shelter so strong, stronger than anything that could be torn down by a storm or a shake of the earth.

The darkness means a night without the comfort of my loves arms....but our souls visit each other in another place at night.

The light brings day, and day seldom has time for dreams....only daydreams interrupted by the ways of the world.

However, with day, comes opportunity to bring dreams to life. It gives occasion for my love and I to meet in this dimension. When we do finally meet, both night and day will be bright. But until than I try to weigh the scales right, and I still cannot choose, darkness or light.

Out of This World Love, Part 2 ~ Poems from the Past

Here are some of the entries from my journal I mentioned in my post "Out of This World Love" These were written in 1997-98 when I was 18 years old and didn't know God. I wasn't raised in a Christian home, I didn't know a thing about Christianity or Religion but yet my spirit was crying out for God. I think it really shows our built in desire for God, for Worship, for His Kingdom. I wrote about the pain of living without God, about dreams of something bigger and better, about the struggle to find my way. I was lost and crying out...he was answering, I just wasn't listening...these were very personal for me at the time - I hope you enjoy them and I hope they help some people realize just how much God loves us and just how much He is in us, even when we are not in Him.

"What happened to the dream of the life when caring meant being loved.
When opening your heart meant being embraced with tenderness.
When hoping meant that the heavens would recognize your devotion and grant your wish?"

"Too much time, not enough hours in the day,
Not enough Love, too much superficiality,
Too much Emptiness, not enough passion,
Not enough Hope, too much Struggle,
Too much Fear, not enough risk,
Not enough dreams, too many tears.
Trapped in a vicious circle, wanting so badly to break free.
Afraid to fly away, not knowing where to fly.
Invasion of privacy yet not enough attention,
Loving Beauty, Hating vanity.
To be carefree seems impossible with a heart so full, but yet so empty.
But I can see a prince and a white horse,
A castle, a sunny day,
A dream.
Myself and I with my fairy tales, A reality.
Sharing my tales and opening my heart
To have it finally embraced and to hold a familiar hand.
A future that will become present,
Before my birth, it was planned."

~~~more poems in Out of this World, Part 3

Photo Oops

Call me naive I suppose - I put the previous picture up because I thought it was fun, joyful, free - kind of how being close to God makes me feel. Apparently some people felt it was a little inappropriate and took away from what I was saying so I am replacing the picture because I don't want anything to distract from the thoughts and feelings I share. I apologize sincerely if I offended anyone - I really didn't think 'sexy' when I looked at this - guess I have too many other things on my mind and should have paid more attention to the message the picture was sending out to people....oops....my bad.

Love to all and thanks for the feedback :)

Obama is no exception!

Okay, THIS may turn out to be a bit of a rant that a lot of people do NOT like. Sometimes the truth hurts....but it's still the truth!

So I cannot seem to get through one day without hearing people speak negatively about Obama....they criticize, call him the anti-Christ, speak of doom for our country, accuse him of all sorts of things. Basically, I cannot get through one day without hearing someone curse our president. Now before you stop reading, please know that this is not a rant to expose my worldly political views. Rather, I hope I can help remind people that scripture applies to ALL of our life, to ALL people, ALWAYS. Obama is no exception. I don't know what version of the Bible people are reading but mine does not say:

• Honour all people, except Obama, or anyone else you don't really like or believe in
• Submit yourselves to every ordinance of man for the Lord's sake, but only if YOU agree with all of the decisions made by the authority in your life (this goes for your parents, your husbands, your employers, your government).

Romans 13:1-7 says

Let Every soul be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and the authorities that exist are appointed by God. Therefore whoever resists the authority resists the ordinance of God, and those who resist will bring judgment on themselves. For rulers are not a terror to good works, but to evil.....

I think some people have forgotten that God is in charge here folks! Do you trust God? Do you believe that He is in control? If so, then WHY WHY WHY do you feel the need to criticize? I pray that as Christians, we will trust God in ALL areas of our lives. Sometimes the way God does things does not make sense, we can't see or understand the greater picture. This is where Faith comes in. God is our King, we are not of this world but are here for but a moment. We are to pray for our president, not condemn him. Our world economy faces an impossible situation, but do we live for our economy? Do we live for money? For anything in this world?

We need to remember that there IS a bigger picture here folks. We need to review and renew our minds with scripture, study and pray for our trust and submission. We need to pray for our country AND for our president. And we need to cling to what is good and love ALL people. Yes, even the president. Even for authorities in our life who do not share our faith. We need to be examples of Christ and fix our eyes on God in these hard times and remember that all of this chaos is of this world - of which we are NOT.

Faithful Rewards

Whenever I am able to ignore my own urges to react in the flesh, God rewards me. Whenever I PRAY and actually LISTEN to God and DO what He says, the situation turns out better than I could have imagined myself. For me, one of the hardest things to do is to listen to God when He tells me to be still. I've always been an independent woman, a go-getter, a 'get-er-done' kinda girl.....okay I tend to be a bit of a control freak! So letting go and casting my cares on God is challenging for me. I have to pray a lot and make a conscious effort to quiet my spirit, avoid reacting to feelings, and stop trying to be God of my own life.

God really has been encouraging me with rewards along the way - I am learning day by day to stop living in such a carnal state of mind, to focus on his promises, and to yield to God. Life is so much easier when I am truly surrendered to God's plan for my life. When I surrender fully to God, amazing things happen. God is always with us - not sometimes - ALWAYS.

Of course, I am not perfect. I am a work in progress, forever learning, and refining; but, I'm in love with the process and enjoy seeing my life transform as God does his good work in me.

Out of this World Love

I found an old journal in my parents' basement last week and was reading through some of my poems, thoughts, and rants from over 12 years ago. Of course these were all written long before I became a Christian. Reading them, it was interesting how my spirit was crying out for God. Like a restless wanderer, I was trying to find my home, my love, my God. What's even more amazing is that God was speaking to me even then, even before I knew Him. The best part, is that I have it all on paper! He spoke to me through my writing providing me with hope, reassurance, and small glimpses of a future I was unable to fathom at the time. Reading through the journal, I had a revelation about God's love for me. Even back then, when I didn't feel lovable, He was calling out to me, waiting patiently, and loving me through it all. I wrote, even then, about a kingdom, of evil prison guards who blocked my cries, of an out of this world kind of love, about the battle between light and dark, and the battle going on inside of me.

I will post some of the exerts from my journal very soon....I feel so blessed to have finally found what I was hungry for all of those years. I am so grateful for God's love, patience, grace, and mercy. I realize now, more than ever, how much God loves us beyond anything we could imagine.

Stay tuned.......